Monday, January 19, 2009

Darling Locked at Home



…..today was suppose to be able to make it to !u wit u n chuu khai…but it didn’t happen
…..today was also suppose to pay ur mom n ur dad a visit but sadly ur mom dun like me
….today was also suppose to meet u at da park but ur being abedient and stayed at home
….today was suppose to be memorable but u had tears before we came to sneakily visit u
However, we did had quite a good time ^^ …..nice house (traditional yet very Chinese)….
Lol….can;t believe we actually sattle down with the gate in between us and chatted for awhile
Lol….and also get to see ur house hehe n pict when u were young hehe so cute and hmm I see that u had a controlled childhood…..very similar wit me….infact…with most asian kids too…sigh…

*Emoing * & *sobbing*

Monday…….19.1.09

….darling….i noe its been hard for u to always hav to face ur parents Like tat….alwasy being scolded and lectured by ur parents whenever there is sumthing happen tat has to do wit me…
Sorry to have u shed tears for me darling…sob….i have no idea how stressfull n how hurt n discouraging it is for u to fce such hardship from ur parents…
…..T.T
Darling….the fact that u mention about…..breaking up…….
Deep down…even tho I didn’t rlei showed it at the spot…..i was…really hurt…..
I know for sure….even tho u didn’t wanna ask tat…but to a certain extend…u did wanted to end tis….*sobs*……
Again like I said…I really wouldn’t know how hard it is for u to get through ur parents…..but I think…it is really hitting hard on u till u even thought of doing that….
But fifi…..what happen to ‘ its worth it!!! ‘…..’we want to go through this toghter’…..’ lets face it toghter’…..’we will make it …through the rain ‘……’ would never let ….u….go…..’
Fiona…..i’m gonna ignore tat question…..i’m not gonna let u hurt even more by breaking up…..i’ll never break my promises……I’m not letting u go…..coz u noe y?
……..I……..LOVE…………YOU…………

All I ask for from u is to TruSt me more….to ShaRe ur feelings when ur up or DoWn……
…………………………will u not ask ‘that’ question …..ever again?....*sobs*
……………….………..will u trust me more?
………………..……….will u share wit me ur sadness, pain and sorrow?
…………………………will u face tis hardship that ur feeling wit me?
……………….…..……will u rely on me?
………………..……....will u let me carry ur burdens on my shoulder and not carry them all by urself?
……………...………..will u love me enough to hold on tis hard but beautiful relationship?
……………….……….will u love me the same yesterday, today and forever?
……………….……….will u let me say everything will be ok?
……………….……….will u………………………………………

Cherish.....

Saturday......17.1.09

….Is best to cherish what u have now b4 is gone….that saying is so true…
T.T….perhaps that is why also…I kinda push our relationship abit fast…
Hope u dun mind….
But still not sure if wat I am doing is right or not…
Wat u think leh…darling…am afraid I am the only one pushing our relationship…
Heheh…wonder y u stop calling


"When i saw you i was afraid to meet you. When i met you i was afraid to kiss you. When i kissed you i was afraid to love you. Now that i love you, I'm afraid to lose you! ^^"

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Surprised and Sadness Thursday……15.1.09


^^ today…for some reason, I just felt that I have a chance to get out of my house n to have dinner with my buddy. I thought of y not go on meeting u instead and give u a surprise since I hav a chance to meet up with u…hehe guess I;m not letting any chance to go to waiste…hehe
….Yes I am feeling very Happy…hehe if u ask ‘happy la u get to see me?’ lol…I really do cherish every moment with u…sitting in the pondok once again..lol…n tis time we had more laughter n chat..just about anything from Christianity to elaine’s prob…to talking about the future hehe…
The way u lean on me…at the last hour we being tighter…the way u hug me by surprise…^^ I loved all those…hehe somehow when u hug my by surprise…I felt so….so….loved…^^ my face was smiling wide and filled wit such fulfillment….how when u rest on my arms….its so..beautiful…n how ticklish is was when u breath on my knee ….=p
Lol….but the funniest n yet sad part just hav to kick in….T.T…cnat believe it all my fault…I wanted to give u a surprise but skrewed up everything…I was too late in wanting to do so…u had to go…ur dad was so furious wit u…..n end up u had to leave without saying goodbye….
Perhaps…..that wasn;t ment to be our last meeting…………..

acting emo me hehehe




Sunday.....11.1.09




....lol...remember this day....i 1st hug ....with my arms around u....hehe


owh...that was so warmth...


hehe. we even made a 'heart'.....

Friday, January 9, 2009

MeSsAgE tO My BeLoVE dArLiNg.....

Friday....9.1.09





darling.....i just wanna say...

hehe hope darling...u like it..
i made tis with the combination of special camera function n light to create this effect
lol...
hehe *stole tis idea from 'Hormones' tat guy when he wanted to impress NAna...^^
=p*

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

....Dreams Come true....^^

....dreams come true....
well..let me tll you...They do!!!
they really do...

my dream...to have a Gf...has finally realised....by a very special girl.....an angel....my darling.....my love...
and one 'Person' i wanna thank you is...God....my Heavenly Father above...
if its wasn't for Him......bringing me n her toghter.......allowing us to even meet.....
we wouldn;t have been toghter.....
and God works in an amazing way....ways we least expected....
never in my life there would be a girl would love me for who i am....regartless of how i look watsoever....she looked at my heart...

*hehe tell u the trurh,she use to go after ONLy LEng CaiSSS*

haha...tats y...funny how...she changed....n choose me..
^^
i also wanna Thank My Lord for being faithfull
n the verse....'wait and you shall recieve' is true...n it does live to its saying...
y? u ask?.....coz....its God's word...

lol...therefore...here it is...i just wanna share my testimonial with you...
lesson learn here...is..
God is Real!!!
Stay faithfull!!!

.....n you will recieve the fullness of life!!^^

Sunday, January 4, 2009

T.T

Sadly…after I got home…n bath…iw as shock n so angry to find my dad …checking my computer!!!...iNvaDing PriVacy!!! Hello!!....Rude much….
Man…I someTimes just wonder y…must he Never fail to Boil my blood…
I mean who can tahan n compromise wit your own dad…checking on you…finding for ‘exotic picture’ KononYA…=.=….plz la…y would he ever wanna catch me wit those? Or is he want it himself?...swt…even so…would u Like it when ppl simply eccess n see all ur pictures n files?
I was so disappointed with him lo…haiz…sad
Sry mui I just hav to express it out…rlei can’t take it d…
My dad is the only one who I reli canlt tahan my angry wit…
But I am still working on it…trying to control n try to keep in mind tat he is the one who gave me everything on earth- perishable….still God n heavenly father above could provide Eternal treasures n everything tat I am all tat I have
….however…I am somehow quite happy wit myself…as I manage to control myself so much better than last Time…I would have quarrel wit him already…HOW?...coz I hav choose to forgive him…n remember tat no one is perfect….n tat my dad is someone I could refer…for good n bad…to learn from…either his advice and his mistake…learn from it…n don’t repeat wat he wronged….(which includes his anti socialNESS and negativeNESS)
N I would understdn that when he mention tat he is concern if I go out too much n being too out going…hmmwonder how come he never mention bout my bro…who is even more out going than me!?!? Y mUst Pick On me??!...grr…*chill*…hiaz…
But as I reflect n reli think through it…I thought…maybe I didn’t show enough trustworthy, I hav not gained their respect, their confidence n assurance from me …
Perhaps…..my results still does not show it all…show how I could excel in studies n as well as social….christianity….relationships….responsibility…sports…
Perhaps…..this is exactly what I should be improving on…to excel well in all those areas….to strike n balance at a high bench mark….with quality and quantity as aim!!!
Perhaps…..i have found my solution…..something tat I hav to resolve…something tat I hav to drastically improve ….n work on…
May God grand me strength…wisdom….guidance …skills……faith ….n a heart for God more


*Here I also want to apologize to the one I hurt…..one who I accidently let my fire off on …yes it’s a her…but its just a good friend of mine who also studies in Perth….hehe therefore….to FT…dun jealous k…^^ ur the only one I reli…erm…ahem hehe…

Today…..2.1.2009 (Friday)


…today was suppose to be another great n memorable day..
Hehe as I got to cycle wit my 2 beloved muis…but of course..got to be wit Fiona…mui ^^ hehe..the special someone to me…
Hehe…can’t 4get your smile…ur laughter ur voice….n your sweet n lovely gesture n actions…
…^^ love the way u lean on me…hehe never felt so warmth n so loved b4…
Thx for the memories again…
Love,
Nelly Kor ^^

New Year’s Eve!!^^……..31.12.2008


Lol…I hav always imagine to hav the perfect celebration to invite the New year…which is to hav a modern luxury private condominiums …with smoothing, relaxing interior and building yet romantic atmosphere…….hosting a party with fine dining, wine….and of course…great friends that click wit each other……filled with laughter and joy!!^^…….and also together….doing the countdown…..that finishes with cheers and poppers n dances
Guess tat would be realize after 2-4 years? Perhaps?....

However,….31 of 2008…went to 1u wit lainey mui, Des, Fiona mui^^, ming n ernest…
But sadly ended up wit just ming n ernest for countdown at curve…T.T sob..
All we did was walking aimlessly….squesing through crowds…n getting all sweaty n smelly…n tired…haiz…hahaha but it was ok tho….atleast I got to see fireworks live…right infront of my eyes…at such close rangen without family n stranded at home…muahahaha..

But somehow…the memorable thing was not the fireworks nor the experience at the countdown…which is the grand finale!!!
It was rather…the moment….moment wit….FT ^^ hehe….that was the 1st time a girl ever…lean on me as a….lover…admire…as a gf…*almost*….hehe I never felt so ….sweet…joy…heartpounding ever in my life…u made me fell deeper onto u…which i….Love it!!!...=p…….
Remembering that every moment wit u…………

Elaine’s Xmas Party….26.12.2008


……can’t forget the way we joke…laugh….can’t forget how u told me u were bored when I was not around to teman u…can’t forget most…how u jump n ‘boo’ behind me with both ur hands on y shoulder….can’t forget how much I regretted not riding the bike to send u home…..
=^^=

1U day…….22.12.2008




Can’t forget how we chat the whole day …sitting on the bench…heheh n how the cleaner wanted us to go away for replace the bench haha…funny…
^^v

!st Look…..18.12.2008


…I remember…how u hide behind Elaine to avoid eye contact wit me….hehe partly coz of shy…^^ who so cute…heheh…..n also…the 1st Time I got to se how u reli look Like…after knowing u for….more than 2 months? Hehe….
=)