....This very day....26th of March...
after our break up...
Fiona darling...u restored our relationship..
n decided to forgive me..
Thanks my love...
that was the best birthday present i got this year...
thanks alot...^^
things went so well....it progressed like a plane....flying higher n higher...
hehe...
such a memorable day to me...
i pray that we could last untill the day i see u again...
i love you Fiona Tok Mei Hung......
Monday, May 11, 2009
Monday, March 9, 2009
Our break up....9th March 09
Fiona...i guess the time for us to put tis relationship on a hold has finally came. And must i also say that despite feeling very 'keberatan' but i guess this is the only way we cna do it......for the better future. Honesly I took alot of courage to put our relationship to the test of time and took alot of courage to let go and shall not force u to do something that you couldn't do (to lie n being sneaky, doing things behind ur parnets back).....
Tell you the truth (hope this doesn't apply to the 'truth hurts rule')....i actually am very emo n almost shed a tear as i type the longest n probably the last sms to you as my girlfriend. Then again, i have to hold back the tears. Reason being is that i have to be strong, to set a good example to u i suppose n also because its a mature decition that i have to take. I have to learn to let go n not hold onto it too tight. And i think not just me but us, we have to learn to let go at times when its nessesary.....in order to recieve better outcomes or even better things and definately better future.
I hope you don;t mind if i post the messege that i send to u here, so that everytime if i ever think of u as my gf again....atleast i have this to read n to remind myself (and perhaps u too Fiona) of why we'r doing/ what we decided.....
SMS goes like this:
Fifi...after reading both ur msg suprisingly i must say im abit sad,but...somehow feel more towards happy actually. Im really glad u actually wanted tis way!! =)
Cos i was about to tell u da same thing, but with btr reason behind tis decision.
I wasn't sure b4 tis if i should ask u tat, coz scare u would feel tat i duwan to support u as bf, but now seems like u wanted it that way instead...so yeah ^^
N i do agree wit ur decision...=)
1st. its btr tis way so tat u dun need to do things behind his back, dun hav to lie. We also dun hav to be disobedient towards ur parnets!!^^
2nd. Hopefully we could concertrade btr in studies...
3rd. Perhaps we both can ease up a little, no stress or worry if we treat other gender good
4th. Use tis time to grow, in terms of being independent n stronger in character/ spiritually/ personality / soul searching/ find out wat n who we reli looking for.
5th. test our love if its a lasting wan or nt. Test our patience. N i believe tat
"if we are really meant to be toghter, no matter what happens, no matter how long to wait, as long as our feelings for each other its real n neva fade, somehow God will bless us n bring us bak!"
So, if our love is real, if we'r meant to be toghter, n end up being toghter again, we can happily say tat we obeyed them!!^^
N lastly, Fiona....i'm ok tat we'r now just friends =)
Lets keep it normal ^^v
Nelson
Tell you the truth (hope this doesn't apply to the 'truth hurts rule')....i actually am very emo n almost shed a tear as i type the longest n probably the last sms to you as my girlfriend. Then again, i have to hold back the tears. Reason being is that i have to be strong, to set a good example to u i suppose n also because its a mature decition that i have to take. I have to learn to let go n not hold onto it too tight. And i think not just me but us, we have to learn to let go at times when its nessesary.....in order to recieve better outcomes or even better things and definately better future.
I hope you don;t mind if i post the messege that i send to u here, so that everytime if i ever think of u as my gf again....atleast i have this to read n to remind myself (and perhaps u too Fiona) of why we'r doing/ what we decided.....
SMS goes like this:
Fifi...after reading both ur msg suprisingly i must say im abit sad,but...somehow feel more towards happy actually. Im really glad u actually wanted tis way!! =)
Cos i was about to tell u da same thing, but with btr reason behind tis decision.
I wasn't sure b4 tis if i should ask u tat, coz scare u would feel tat i duwan to support u as bf, but now seems like u wanted it that way instead...so yeah ^^
N i do agree wit ur decision...=)
1st. its btr tis way so tat u dun need to do things behind his back, dun hav to lie. We also dun hav to be disobedient towards ur parnets!!^^
2nd. Hopefully we could concertrade btr in studies...
3rd. Perhaps we both can ease up a little, no stress or worry if we treat other gender good
4th. Use tis time to grow, in terms of being independent n stronger in character/ spiritually/ personality / soul searching/ find out wat n who we reli looking for.
5th. test our love if its a lasting wan or nt. Test our patience. N i believe tat
"if we are really meant to be toghter, no matter what happens, no matter how long to wait, as long as our feelings for each other its real n neva fade, somehow God will bless us n bring us bak!"
So, if our love is real, if we'r meant to be toghter, n end up being toghter again, we can happily say tat we obeyed them!!^^
N lastly, Fiona....i'm ok tat we'r now just friends =)
Lets keep it normal ^^v
Nelson
Sunday, March 8, 2009
7th March Tragedy....
to start it off....well i honesly really dono how to start at all....
all i could say its tat....thruth finally revealed to your dad...
i was fearfull this day was gonna come...coz parnets somehow just noe everything about their children...i guess its just something tat is ment to be...
sigh...
i was totally shock n was trembling when i heard tat ur dad found out about us...n force u to......
n well actually i faced it form my parnets as well...n i was not a nice scene at all...i too....cried for u actually....cried when my parnets stop me from going to meet u on the day before i fly off to Perth....at that moment i feel LIke i was imprisoned by them....i just couldn;t fight anymore...total surrender to them...
No matter what the situation is...weather if its 'broke up' in name.....my heart for u remain the same.. ur still remain as my GF in my heart...
Fiona.....i truelly cna understand wat ur going through...but osmehow...what ur experiencing is way heavier than wat i went through...
having to said tat...i still....well not to be rebellious...but i simply can't forget the thinsg tat is going between us...i can;t let go of tis relationship...simply coz...i dunwant...coz...i truelly Love u...n i said this once...n i would say it again...
After this experience, i realise that....every little hurdle we went through all this time...even tho it has been hard...but i realise...all these things actually strneghtens our love...our feelings...its getting clearer on how we truelly feel towards each other....especially this experience....the more we can't keep in touch...the mroe i want to cherrish every conversation, every chance we have to communicate!!!
...i just want to Hold u close to me...whenever i close my eyes......
i could just imagine....n remember the moment when ur in my arms.......
n now.....i would hold u in my arms even longer than before.....hugging u tighter than before....never wnat to let u go......
''We always have half of each other's heart.....your's with me n mine with you.....One dAy......that HeArT would join back as One again....i BeliEve!!!''
my love for u would not be the same....but its ever increasing!!!
I LOve YOU FIONA TOK MEI HUNG!!!!!!!!!!!
*sobs*
you are ALWAYs....gonna be my 1st Love....
ur still ...My Girlfriend!!!!!!!
Now and foreVeR!!
all i could say its tat....thruth finally revealed to your dad...
i was fearfull this day was gonna come...coz parnets somehow just noe everything about their children...i guess its just something tat is ment to be...
sigh...
i was totally shock n was trembling when i heard tat ur dad found out about us...n force u to......
n well actually i faced it form my parnets as well...n i was not a nice scene at all...i too....cried for u actually....cried when my parnets stop me from going to meet u on the day before i fly off to Perth....at that moment i feel LIke i was imprisoned by them....i just couldn;t fight anymore...total surrender to them...
No matter what the situation is...weather if its 'broke up' in name.....my heart for u remain the same.. ur still remain as my GF in my heart...
Fiona.....i truelly cna understand wat ur going through...but osmehow...what ur experiencing is way heavier than wat i went through...
having to said tat...i still....well not to be rebellious...but i simply can't forget the thinsg tat is going between us...i can;t let go of tis relationship...simply coz...i dunwant...coz...i truelly Love u...n i said this once...n i would say it again...
After this experience, i realise that....every little hurdle we went through all this time...even tho it has been hard...but i realise...all these things actually strneghtens our love...our feelings...its getting clearer on how we truelly feel towards each other....especially this experience....the more we can't keep in touch...the mroe i want to cherrish every conversation, every chance we have to communicate!!!
...i just want to Hold u close to me...whenever i close my eyes......
i could just imagine....n remember the moment when ur in my arms.......
n now.....i would hold u in my arms even longer than before.....hugging u tighter than before....never wnat to let u go......
''We always have half of each other's heart.....your's with me n mine with you.....One dAy......that HeArT would join back as One again....i BeliEve!!!''
my love for u would not be the same....but its ever increasing!!!
I LOve YOU FIONA TOK MEI HUNG!!!!!!!!!!!
*sobs*
you are ALWAYs....gonna be my 1st Love....
ur still ...My Girlfriend!!!!!!!
Now and foreVeR!!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
pERsOnAl eXpErIence -- before n after being in a relationship ^^
heyz....haha just want to share about what i experience n notice...before n after being in a relationship..
i'm just wondering if everyone that are in a relationship would actually felt the same as i do...
i notice that after having a lovely n sweet Fiona as girlfriend...i really felt that there is something differnet in me. I notice that whenever i am around with girls or a girl, i find that i could express myself more freely than ever...i'm wondering if tis is because of
1.i know how to treat a girl better
2. i have confidence wihtmyself to the fact that i manage to have a gf ^^
3. i don;t hav to worry that i would have other intentions toward whichever pretty girl i talk to. (use to be easily attracted to jsut any-was desperade...WAS...)
4. i also feeling n thinking that i already have one, ^^ so duneed to even bother considering about the girl im chatting with.
5. simply coz i already have the BEst Girl d!!!....one who cares for me....one who reli does love me for not just looks but whats inside....one who had scarificed alot for me....one that is missing me every second every hour everyday....one that lightens my day whenever she is around.....one whom i really love
to: Fiona.....my love
Sarang hae yo....1314
i'm just wondering if everyone that are in a relationship would actually felt the same as i do...
i notice that after having a lovely n sweet Fiona as girlfriend...i really felt that there is something differnet in me. I notice that whenever i am around with girls or a girl, i find that i could express myself more freely than ever...i'm wondering if tis is because of
1.i know how to treat a girl better
2. i have confidence wihtmyself to the fact that i manage to have a gf ^^
3. i don;t hav to worry that i would have other intentions toward whichever pretty girl i talk to. (use to be easily attracted to jsut any-was desperade...WAS...)
4. i also feeling n thinking that i already have one, ^^ so duneed to even bother considering about the girl im chatting with.
5. simply coz i already have the BEst Girl d!!!....one who cares for me....one who reli does love me for not just looks but whats inside....one who had scarificed alot for me....one that is missing me every second every hour everyday....one that lightens my day whenever she is around.....one whom i really love
to: Fiona.....my love
Sarang hae yo....1314
Friday, February 13, 2009
Our very own...Valentines's Moment....
to my Fiona Darling:
today 14th Feb....might be valentines day...but to me...it would be a day that i would be thinking about you every hour...every munite....every second...every minisecond....every breath i breath.....Memories of us on our ''Valentine's Moment' keeps flashing in my mind....everything ocmes back to me afreash,and Darling...u noe what too...because of u...u have lift up my burden, my loneliness of this world, lifted up my enviness towards other couple... Vday use to be a very sad and envious day to me for the past 19 years...untill...i have u!!!!! because of you being in my life tho distance are long, u lit up my day, i no longer need to pity myself, question y am i being so lonely, so unlucky...because i know...very sure that...i have u n you have me...we have each other...and also a piece of each other's heart...to each of our empty hearts...be completed with each others's.....Happy Valentines day.
I Love you........
*kisses on cheek*
today 14th Feb....might be valentines day...but to me...it would be a day that i would be thinking about you every hour...every munite....every second...every minisecond....every breath i breath.....Memories of us on our ''Valentine's Moment' keeps flashing in my mind....everything ocmes back to me afreash,and Darling...u noe what too...because of u...u have lift up my burden, my loneliness of this world, lifted up my enviness towards other couple... Vday use to be a very sad and envious day to me for the past 19 years...untill...i have u!!!!! because of you being in my life tho distance are long, u lit up my day, i no longer need to pity myself, question y am i being so lonely, so unlucky...because i know...very sure that...i have u n you have me...we have each other...and also a piece of each other's heart...to each of our empty hearts...be completed with each others's.....Happy Valentines day.
I Love you........
*kisses on cheek*
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Risky yet memorable Candle day in BU6 park.....
Thursday.......5.2.09
^^ hehe this is the day tat i would never 4get..
the day when i came to bu6 park for u when we were suppose go ice skating...
lol...came at 3.50 n wait till 5 for u..hehe but it was ok...i was bz setup the candles anyway hehe...
....i will always remmeber teh way u reacted when u saw teh candles...n even question y am i being so silly doing all this...hehe....n afetr u saw the necklace...tears came rolling down ur cheek..wonder if u were touched or ...
=)
either way...tehre was many thought running in u..i noe tat too...but as i said those were just...thoughts...but see now..^^ everything turn up great!!^^V yahoo..
i also cna;t 4get...the way u leann on me...n when u hug me...also when u suprise me wit a kiss...lol...tat moment...i was reli stun...stunu coz..that was the 1st kiss from any girl...other tahn my mom n grandma...== hahahah
but yea...reli touched by it...by the loved that i felt...touched by ur love...
for the 1st time...i felt Liek i wanna hold u in my arms forever...n wish time would freeze.....
the way u looked at me also....felt so.....indescribeable.....felt so amazing..u were truelly my angle ....then n forever...
with the necklace...we both will alwasy hav a piece of each other's heart....forever engraved on it...i'll never 4get u.....Remember u Always....
Fiona....i realli do Love u sooo Soooo much...
i LOve U MoRe tHan AnyThinG in tHE WorlD!!!!!!!!!!!
<3
1 U as double date ^^
Monday ............2.2.09
^^ hehe after 10 days of CNY back home...finally we could once again meet up n hang out...
=).....finally could once again 'date' wit Fifi darling hehe
we 1st had Mcdonald...hahah u were 'complaining' about me getting 2 strews for one drink hehe...so funny
then we went for movie...hehe ''All Well Ends Well'' ^^ Whee...n wahahaha..so Funny the movie...bubt most importantly..fifi...u were even more intresting....keke
n u hit ur head on da wall for 4 times...kasian...hehe...lucky u still hav 'brain' ...=p hehehe
lol...guess after tat...we all had to go d...but somehow ...we stayed at 1u...n pissed elaine n Des off ...(sowie Elaine mui n Des)...hehe anyway...hehe feed each other wit tat wantan...lol n can;t believe u mix the soup in it haha...but still taste nice hehe...wonder if tats how u eat it...=p n u also mention i'm just like ur dad...eat those 'lfetovers' kekeke...
after tat...was aslo sumthing tat happen quite sudden hehe..we reached elaine's house b4 she did haha...but oh uhh...she got into trouble...but the best part...tat i could not 4get...i finally gave u a suprise ...erm...hehe...'muakz'....after hugs...lol.....
n tats the 1st time i kiss a girl.....^^V
Monday, January 19, 2009
Darling Locked at Home
…..today was suppose to be able to make it to !u wit u n chuu khai…but it didn’t happen
…..today was also suppose to pay ur mom n ur dad a visit but sadly ur mom dun like me
….today was also suppose to meet u at da park but ur being abedient and stayed at home
….today was suppose to be memorable but u had tears before we came to sneakily visit u
However, we did had quite a good time ^^ …..nice house (traditional yet very Chinese)….
Lol….can;t believe we actually sattle down with the gate in between us and chatted for awhile
Lol….and also get to see ur house hehe n pict when u were young hehe so cute and hmm I see that u had a controlled childhood…..very similar wit me….infact…with most asian kids too…sigh…
…..today was also suppose to pay ur mom n ur dad a visit but sadly ur mom dun like me
….today was also suppose to meet u at da park but ur being abedient and stayed at home
….today was suppose to be memorable but u had tears before we came to sneakily visit u
However, we did had quite a good time ^^ …..nice house (traditional yet very Chinese)….
Lol….can;t believe we actually sattle down with the gate in between us and chatted for awhile
Lol….and also get to see ur house hehe n pict when u were young hehe so cute and hmm I see that u had a controlled childhood…..very similar wit me….infact…with most asian kids too…sigh…
*Emoing * & *sobbing*
Monday…….19.1.09
….darling….i noe its been hard for u to always hav to face ur parents Like tat….alwasy being scolded and lectured by ur parents whenever there is sumthing happen tat has to do wit me…
Sorry to have u shed tears for me darling…sob….i have no idea how stressfull n how hurt n discouraging it is for u to fce such hardship from ur parents…
…..T.T
Darling….the fact that u mention about…..breaking up…….
Deep down…even tho I didn’t rlei showed it at the spot…..i was…really hurt…..
I know for sure….even tho u didn’t wanna ask tat…but to a certain extend…u did wanted to end tis….*sobs*……
Again like I said…I really wouldn’t know how hard it is for u to get through ur parents…..but I think…it is really hitting hard on u till u even thought of doing that….
But fifi…..what happen to ‘ its worth it!!! ‘…..’we want to go through this toghter’…..’ lets face it toghter’…..’we will make it …through the rain ‘……’ would never let ….u….go…..’
Fiona…..i’m gonna ignore tat question…..i’m not gonna let u hurt even more by breaking up…..i’ll never break my promises……I’m not letting u go…..coz u noe y?
……..I……..LOVE…………YOU…………
All I ask for from u is to TruSt me more….to ShaRe ur feelings when ur up or DoWn……
…………………………will u not ask ‘that’ question …..ever again?....*sobs*
……………….………..will u trust me more?
………………..……….will u share wit me ur sadness, pain and sorrow?
…………………………will u face tis hardship that ur feeling wit me?
……………….…..……will u rely on me?
………………..……....will u let me carry ur burdens on my shoulder and not carry them all by urself?
……………...………..will u love me enough to hold on tis hard but beautiful relationship?
……………….……….will u love me the same yesterday, today and forever?
……………….……….will u let me say everything will be ok?
……………….……….will u………………………………………
….darling….i noe its been hard for u to always hav to face ur parents Like tat….alwasy being scolded and lectured by ur parents whenever there is sumthing happen tat has to do wit me…
Sorry to have u shed tears for me darling…sob….i have no idea how stressfull n how hurt n discouraging it is for u to fce such hardship from ur parents…
…..T.T
Darling….the fact that u mention about…..breaking up…….
Deep down…even tho I didn’t rlei showed it at the spot…..i was…really hurt…..
I know for sure….even tho u didn’t wanna ask tat…but to a certain extend…u did wanted to end tis….*sobs*……
Again like I said…I really wouldn’t know how hard it is for u to get through ur parents…..but I think…it is really hitting hard on u till u even thought of doing that….
But fifi…..what happen to ‘ its worth it!!! ‘…..’we want to go through this toghter’…..’ lets face it toghter’…..’we will make it …through the rain ‘……’ would never let ….u….go…..’
Fiona…..i’m gonna ignore tat question…..i’m not gonna let u hurt even more by breaking up…..i’ll never break my promises……I’m not letting u go…..coz u noe y?
……..I……..LOVE…………YOU…………
All I ask for from u is to TruSt me more….to ShaRe ur feelings when ur up or DoWn……
…………………………will u not ask ‘that’ question …..ever again?....*sobs*
……………….………..will u trust me more?
………………..……….will u share wit me ur sadness, pain and sorrow?
…………………………will u face tis hardship that ur feeling wit me?
……………….…..……will u rely on me?
………………..……....will u let me carry ur burdens on my shoulder and not carry them all by urself?
……………...………..will u love me enough to hold on tis hard but beautiful relationship?
……………….……….will u love me the same yesterday, today and forever?
……………….……….will u let me say everything will be ok?
……………….……….will u………………………………………
Cherish.....
Saturday......17.1.09
….Is best to cherish what u have now b4 is gone….that saying is so true…
T.T….perhaps that is why also…I kinda push our relationship abit fast…
Hope u dun mind….
But still not sure if wat I am doing is right or not…
Wat u think leh…darling…am afraid I am the only one pushing our relationship…
Heheh…wonder y u stop calling
"When i saw you i was afraid to meet you. When i met you i was afraid to kiss you. When i kissed you i was afraid to love you. Now that i love you, I'm afraid to lose you! ^^"
….Is best to cherish what u have now b4 is gone….that saying is so true…
T.T….perhaps that is why also…I kinda push our relationship abit fast…
Hope u dun mind….
But still not sure if wat I am doing is right or not…
Wat u think leh…darling…am afraid I am the only one pushing our relationship…
Heheh…wonder y u stop calling
"When i saw you i was afraid to meet you. When i met you i was afraid to kiss you. When i kissed you i was afraid to love you. Now that i love you, I'm afraid to lose you! ^^"
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Surprised and Sadness Thursday……15.1.09
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^^ today…for some reason, I just felt that I have a chance to get out of my house n to have dinner with my buddy. I thought of y not go on meeting u instead and give u a surprise since I hav a chance to meet up with u…hehe guess I;m not letting any chance to go to waiste…hehe
….Yes I am feeling very Happy…hehe if u ask ‘happy la u get to see me?’ lol…I really do cherish every moment with u…sitting in the pondok once again..lol…n tis time we had more laughter n chat..just about anything from Christianity to elaine’s prob…to talking about the future hehe…
The way u lean on me…at the last hour we being tighter…the way u hug me by surprise…^^ I loved all those…hehe somehow when u hug my by surprise…I felt so….so….loved…^^ my face was smiling wide and filled wit such fulfillment….how when u rest on my arms….its so..beautiful…n how ticklish is was when u breath on my knee ….=p
Lol….but the funniest n yet sad part just hav to kick in….T.T…cnat believe it all my fault…I wanted to give u a surprise but skrewed up everything…I was too late in wanting to do so…u had to go…ur dad was so furious wit u…..n end up u had to leave without saying goodbye….
Perhaps…..that wasn;t ment to be our last meeting…………..
….Yes I am feeling very Happy…hehe if u ask ‘happy la u get to see me?’ lol…I really do cherish every moment with u…sitting in the pondok once again..lol…n tis time we had more laughter n chat..just about anything from Christianity to elaine’s prob…to talking about the future hehe…
The way u lean on me…at the last hour we being tighter…the way u hug me by surprise…^^ I loved all those…hehe somehow when u hug my by surprise…I felt so….so….loved…^^ my face was smiling wide and filled wit such fulfillment….how when u rest on my arms….its so..beautiful…n how ticklish is was when u breath on my knee ….=p
Lol….but the funniest n yet sad part just hav to kick in….T.T…cnat believe it all my fault…I wanted to give u a surprise but skrewed up everything…I was too late in wanting to do so…u had to go…ur dad was so furious wit u…..n end up u had to leave without saying goodbye….
Perhaps…..that wasn;t ment to be our last meeting…………..
acting emo me hehehe
Sunday.....11.1.09
....lol...remember this day....i 1st hug ....with my arms around u....hehe
owh...that was so warmth...
hehe. we even made a 'heart'.....
Friday, January 9, 2009
MeSsAgE tO My BeLoVE dArLiNg.....
Friday....9.1.09
darling.....i just wanna say...
hehe hope darling...u like it..
i made tis with the combination of special camera function n light to create this effect
lol...
hehe *stole tis idea from 'Hormones' tat guy when he wanted to impress NAna...^^
=p*
darling.....i just wanna say...
hehe hope darling...u like it..
i made tis with the combination of special camera function n light to create this effect
lol...
hehe *stole tis idea from 'Hormones' tat guy when he wanted to impress NAna...^^
=p*
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
....Dreams Come true....^^
....dreams come true....
well..let me tll you...They do!!!
they really do...
my dream...to have a Gf...has finally realised....by a very special girl.....an angel....my darling.....my love...
and one 'Person' i wanna thank you is...God....my Heavenly Father above...
if its wasn't for Him......bringing me n her toghter.......allowing us to even meet.....
we wouldn;t have been toghter.....
and God works in an amazing way....ways we least expected....
never in my life there would be a girl would love me for who i am....regartless of how i look watsoever....she looked at my heart...
*hehe tell u the trurh,she use to go after ONLy LEng CaiSSS*
haha...tats y...funny how...she changed....n choose me..
^^
i also wanna Thank My Lord for being faithfull
n the verse....'wait and you shall recieve' is true...n it does live to its saying...
y? u ask?.....coz....its God's word...
lol...therefore...here it is...i just wanna share my testimonial with you...
lesson learn here...is..
God is Real!!!
Stay faithfull!!!
.....n you will recieve the fullness of life!!^^
well..let me tll you...They do!!!
they really do...
my dream...to have a Gf...has finally realised....by a very special girl.....an angel....my darling.....my love...
and one 'Person' i wanna thank you is...God....my Heavenly Father above...
if its wasn't for Him......bringing me n her toghter.......allowing us to even meet.....
we wouldn;t have been toghter.....
and God works in an amazing way....ways we least expected....
never in my life there would be a girl would love me for who i am....regartless of how i look watsoever....she looked at my heart...
*hehe tell u the trurh,she use to go after ONLy LEng CaiSSS*
haha...tats y...funny how...she changed....n choose me..
^^
i also wanna Thank My Lord for being faithfull
n the verse....'wait and you shall recieve' is true...n it does live to its saying...
y? u ask?.....coz....its God's word...
lol...therefore...here it is...i just wanna share my testimonial with you...
lesson learn here...is..
God is Real!!!
Stay faithfull!!!
.....n you will recieve the fullness of life!!^^
Sunday, January 4, 2009
T.T
Sadly…after I got home…n bath…iw as shock n so angry to find my dad …checking my computer!!!...iNvaDing PriVacy!!! Hello!!....Rude much….
Man…I someTimes just wonder y…must he Never fail to Boil my blood…
I mean who can tahan n compromise wit your own dad…checking on you…finding for ‘exotic picture’ KononYA…=.=….plz la…y would he ever wanna catch me wit those? Or is he want it himself?...swt…even so…would u Like it when ppl simply eccess n see all ur pictures n files?
I was so disappointed with him lo…haiz…sad
Sry mui I just hav to express it out…rlei can’t take it d…
My dad is the only one who I reli canlt tahan my angry wit…
But I am still working on it…trying to control n try to keep in mind tat he is the one who gave me everything on earth- perishable….still God n heavenly father above could provide Eternal treasures n everything tat I am all tat I have
….however…I am somehow quite happy wit myself…as I manage to control myself so much better than last Time…I would have quarrel wit him already…HOW?...coz I hav choose to forgive him…n remember tat no one is perfect….n tat my dad is someone I could refer…for good n bad…to learn from…either his advice and his mistake…learn from it…n don’t repeat wat he wronged….(which includes his anti socialNESS and negativeNESS)
N I would understdn that when he mention tat he is concern if I go out too much n being too out going…hmmwonder how come he never mention bout my bro…who is even more out going than me!?!? Y mUst Pick On me??!...grr…*chill*…hiaz…
But as I reflect n reli think through it…I thought…maybe I didn’t show enough trustworthy, I hav not gained their respect, their confidence n assurance from me …
Perhaps…..my results still does not show it all…show how I could excel in studies n as well as social….christianity….relationships….responsibility…sports…
Perhaps…..this is exactly what I should be improving on…to excel well in all those areas….to strike n balance at a high bench mark….with quality and quantity as aim!!!
Perhaps…..i have found my solution…..something tat I hav to resolve…something tat I hav to drastically improve ….n work on…
May God grand me strength…wisdom….guidance …skills……faith ….n a heart for God more
*Here I also want to apologize to the one I hurt…..one who I accidently let my fire off on …yes it’s a her…but its just a good friend of mine who also studies in Perth….hehe therefore….to FT…dun jealous k…^^ ur the only one I reli…erm…ahem hehe…
Man…I someTimes just wonder y…must he Never fail to Boil my blood…
I mean who can tahan n compromise wit your own dad…checking on you…finding for ‘exotic picture’ KononYA…=.=….plz la…y would he ever wanna catch me wit those? Or is he want it himself?...swt…even so…would u Like it when ppl simply eccess n see all ur pictures n files?
I was so disappointed with him lo…haiz…sad
Sry mui I just hav to express it out…rlei can’t take it d…
My dad is the only one who I reli canlt tahan my angry wit…
But I am still working on it…trying to control n try to keep in mind tat he is the one who gave me everything on earth- perishable….still God n heavenly father above could provide Eternal treasures n everything tat I am all tat I have
….however…I am somehow quite happy wit myself…as I manage to control myself so much better than last Time…I would have quarrel wit him already…HOW?...coz I hav choose to forgive him…n remember tat no one is perfect….n tat my dad is someone I could refer…for good n bad…to learn from…either his advice and his mistake…learn from it…n don’t repeat wat he wronged….(which includes his anti socialNESS and negativeNESS)
N I would understdn that when he mention tat he is concern if I go out too much n being too out going…hmmwonder how come he never mention bout my bro…who is even more out going than me!?!? Y mUst Pick On me??!...grr…*chill*…hiaz…
But as I reflect n reli think through it…I thought…maybe I didn’t show enough trustworthy, I hav not gained their respect, their confidence n assurance from me …
Perhaps…..my results still does not show it all…show how I could excel in studies n as well as social….christianity….relationships….responsibility…sports…
Perhaps…..this is exactly what I should be improving on…to excel well in all those areas….to strike n balance at a high bench mark….with quality and quantity as aim!!!
Perhaps…..i have found my solution…..something tat I hav to resolve…something tat I hav to drastically improve ….n work on…
May God grand me strength…wisdom….guidance …skills……faith ….n a heart for God more
*Here I also want to apologize to the one I hurt…..one who I accidently let my fire off on …yes it’s a her…but its just a good friend of mine who also studies in Perth….hehe therefore….to FT…dun jealous k…^^ ur the only one I reli…erm…ahem hehe…
Today…..2.1.2009 (Friday)
…today was suppose to be another great n memorable day..
Hehe as I got to cycle wit my 2 beloved muis…but of course..got to be wit Fiona…mui ^^ hehe..the special someone to me…
Hehe…can’t 4get your smile…ur laughter ur voice….n your sweet n lovely gesture n actions…
…^^ love the way u lean on me…hehe never felt so warmth n so loved b4…
Thx for the memories again…
Love,
Nelly Kor ^^
New Year’s Eve!!^^……..31.12.2008
Lol…I hav always imagine to hav the perfect celebration to invite the New year…which is to hav a modern luxury private condominiums …with smoothing, relaxing interior and building yet romantic atmosphere…….hosting a party with fine dining, wine….and of course…great friends that click wit each other……filled with laughter and joy!!^^…….and also together….doing the countdown…..that finishes with cheers and poppers n dances
Guess tat would be realize after 2-4 years? Perhaps?....
However,….31 of 2008…went to 1u wit lainey mui, Des, Fiona mui^^, ming n ernest…
But sadly ended up wit just ming n ernest for countdown at curve…T.T sob..
All we did was walking aimlessly….squesing through crowds…n getting all sweaty n smelly…n tired…haiz…hahaha but it was ok tho….atleast I got to see fireworks live…right infront of my eyes…at such close rangen without family n stranded at home…muahahaha..
But somehow…the memorable thing was not the fireworks nor the experience at the countdown…which is the grand finale!!!
It was rather…the moment….moment wit….FT ^^ hehe….that was the 1st time a girl ever…lean on me as a….lover…admire…as a gf…*almost*….hehe I never felt so ….sweet…joy…heartpounding ever in my life…u made me fell deeper onto u…which i….Love it!!!...=p…….
Remembering that every moment wit u…………
Elaine’s Xmas Party….26.12.2008
……can’t forget the way we joke…laugh….can’t forget how u told me u were bored when I was not around to teman u…can’t forget most…how u jump n ‘boo’ behind me with both ur hands on y shoulder….can’t forget how much I regretted not riding the bike to send u home…..
=^^=
1U day…….22.12.2008
Can’t forget how we chat the whole day …sitting on the bench…heheh n how the cleaner wanted us to go away for replace the bench haha…funny…
^^v
!st Look…..18.12.2008
…I remember…how u hide behind Elaine to avoid eye contact wit me….hehe partly coz of shy…^^ who so cute…heheh…..n also…the 1st Time I got to se how u reli look Like…after knowing u for….more than 2 months? Hehe….
=)
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