Monday, March 9, 2009

Our break up....9th March 09

Fiona...i guess the time for us to put tis relationship on a hold has finally came. And must i also say that despite feeling very 'keberatan' but i guess this is the only way we cna do it......for the better future. Honesly I took alot of courage to put our relationship to the test of time and took alot of courage to let go and shall not force u to do something that you couldn't do (to lie n being sneaky, doing things behind ur parnets back).....

Tell you the truth (hope this doesn't apply to the 'truth hurts rule')....i actually am very emo n almost shed a tear as i type the longest n probably the last sms to you as my girlfriend. Then again, i have to hold back the tears. Reason being is that i have to be strong, to set a good example to u i suppose n also because its a mature decition that i have to take. I have to learn to let go n not hold onto it too tight. And i think not just me but us, we have to learn to let go at times when its nessesary.....in order to recieve better outcomes or even better things and definately better future.

I hope you don;t mind if i post the messege that i send to u here, so that everytime if i ever think of u as my gf again....atleast i have this to read n to remind myself (and perhaps u too Fiona) of why we'r doing/ what we decided.....

SMS goes like this:

Fifi...after reading both ur msg suprisingly i must say im abit sad,but...somehow feel more towards happy actually. Im really glad u actually wanted tis way!! =)

Cos i was about to tell u da same thing, but with btr reason behind tis decision.

I wasn't sure b4 tis if i should ask u tat, coz scare u would feel tat i duwan to support u as bf, but now seems like u wanted it that way instead...so yeah ^^

N i do agree wit ur decision...=)

1st. its btr tis way so tat u dun need to do things behind his back, dun hav to lie. We also dun hav to be disobedient towards ur parnets!!^^

2nd. Hopefully we could concertrade btr in studies...

3rd. Perhaps we both can ease up a little, no stress or worry if we treat other gender good

4th. Use tis time to grow, in terms of being independent n stronger in character/ spiritually/ personality / soul searching/ find out wat n who we reli looking for.

5th. test our love if its a lasting wan or nt. Test our patience. N i believe tat

"if we are really meant to be toghter, no matter what happens, no matter how long to wait, as long as our feelings for each other its real n neva fade, somehow God will bless us n bring us bak!"

So, if our love is real, if we'r meant to be toghter, n end up being toghter again, we can happily say tat we obeyed them!!^^

N lastly, Fiona....i'm ok tat we'r now just friends =)
Lets keep it normal ^^v

Nelson

Sunday, March 8, 2009

7th March Tragedy....

to start it off....well i honesly really dono how to start at all....
all i could say its tat....thruth finally revealed to your dad...
i was fearfull this day was gonna come...coz parnets somehow just noe everything about their children...i guess its just something tat is ment to be...
sigh...

i was totally shock n was trembling when i heard tat ur dad found out about us...n force u to......
n well actually i faced it form my parnets as well...n i was not a nice scene at all...i too....cried for u actually....cried when my parnets stop me from going to meet u on the day before i fly off to Perth....at that moment i feel LIke i was imprisoned by them....i just couldn;t fight anymore...total surrender to them...
No matter what the situation is...weather if its 'broke up' in name.....my heart for u remain the same.. ur still remain as my GF in my heart...

Fiona.....i truelly cna understand wat ur going through...but osmehow...what ur experiencing is way heavier than wat i went through...
having to said tat...i still....well not to be rebellious...but i simply can't forget the thinsg tat is going between us...i can;t let go of tis relationship...simply coz...i dunwant...coz...i truelly Love u...n i said this once...n i would say it again...

After this experience, i realise that....every little hurdle we went through all this time...even tho it has been hard...but i realise...all these things actually strneghtens our love...our feelings...its getting clearer on how we truelly feel towards each other....especially this experience....the more we can't keep in touch...the mroe i want to cherrish every conversation, every chance we have to communicate!!!

...i just want to Hold u close to me...whenever i close my eyes......
i could just imagine....n remember the moment when ur in my arms.......
n now.....i would hold u in my arms even longer than before.....hugging u tighter than before....never wnat to let u go......

''We always have half of each other's heart.....your's with me n mine with you.....One dAy......that HeArT would join back as One again....i BeliEve!!!''

my love for u would not be the same....but its ever increasing!!!
I LOve YOU FIONA TOK MEI HUNG!!!!!!!!!!!
*sobs*

you are ALWAYs....gonna be my 1st Love....
ur still ...My Girlfriend!!!!!!!

Now and foreVeR!!