Fiona...i guess the time for us to put tis relationship on a hold has finally came. And must i also say that despite feeling very 'keberatan' but i guess this is the only way we cna do it......for the better future. Honesly I took alot of courage to put our relationship to the test of time and took alot of courage to let go and shall not force u to do something that you couldn't do (to lie n being sneaky, doing things behind ur parnets back).....
Tell you the truth (hope this doesn't apply to the 'truth hurts rule')....i actually am very emo n almost shed a tear as i type the longest n probably the last sms to you as my girlfriend. Then again, i have to hold back the tears. Reason being is that i have to be strong, to set a good example to u i suppose n also because its a mature decition that i have to take. I have to learn to let go n not hold onto it too tight. And i think not just me but us, we have to learn to let go at times when its nessesary.....in order to recieve better outcomes or even better things and definately better future.
I hope you don;t mind if i post the messege that i send to u here, so that everytime if i ever think of u as my gf again....atleast i have this to read n to remind myself (and perhaps u too Fiona) of why we'r doing/ what we decided.....
SMS goes like this:
Fifi...after reading both ur msg suprisingly i must say im abit sad,but...somehow feel more towards happy actually. Im really glad u actually wanted tis way!! =)
Cos i was about to tell u da same thing, but with btr reason behind tis decision.
I wasn't sure b4 tis if i should ask u tat, coz scare u would feel tat i duwan to support u as bf, but now seems like u wanted it that way instead...so yeah ^^
N i do agree wit ur decision...=)
1st. its btr tis way so tat u dun need to do things behind his back, dun hav to lie. We also dun hav to be disobedient towards ur parnets!!^^
2nd. Hopefully we could concertrade btr in studies...
3rd. Perhaps we both can ease up a little, no stress or worry if we treat other gender good
4th. Use tis time to grow, in terms of being independent n stronger in character/ spiritually/ personality / soul searching/ find out wat n who we reli looking for.
5th. test our love if its a lasting wan or nt. Test our patience. N i believe tat
"if we are really meant to be toghter, no matter what happens, no matter how long to wait, as long as our feelings for each other its real n neva fade, somehow God will bless us n bring us bak!"
So, if our love is real, if we'r meant to be toghter, n end up being toghter again, we can happily say tat we obeyed them!!^^
N lastly, Fiona....i'm ok tat we'r now just friends =)
Lets keep it normal ^^v